The late Dr. Martin Luther King, Jr. said, "Faith is taking the first step even when you don't see the whole staircase." I have to admit that I've been at a loss for the right words for this post. I've known the title for probably two months, but no words. Life has a way of testing my patience and it's safe to say that I'm in that moment right now with my current adventure. But! I can also say that the blessings are PLENTIFUL. I am so grateful for the rays of sunshine that surround me and offer random pep talk text messages, inspirational quotes on my Facebook page, dinners, amusement park adventures (more on that later) and the list goes on and on.
Throughout my career I've always had a mantra of "anything is possible with a good pair of red shoes." My friend's father once told me that he didn't like red shoes because that's what the hookers in Puerto Rico wore when he was a kid. Nonetheless, I've always felt great power in a good pair of red shoes. How many times do we have a day that we think, "huh, how about I stay in my bed, firmly planted under the covers, and the grown-upping ceases?" I've had them a few too many days in my life, but some of the BEST days I've experienced have been those when I kicked myself out of bed, got dressed, threw on my red shoes and showed up. It's not easy. I've talked about my bestie relationship with a thing called depression and one thing that is a consistent is this: the days you want to stay in bed and give the hell up are the days you need to get out of bed the MOST and move and be active. It is seriously the biggest, most painful paradox, but it's true. Get that blood flowing and force your brain to think about things other than the suckiness of your life and find the sunshine.
Faith in the unknown is an on-going battle for me. I'm a planner, a doer, a giver and a lady who likes to have a clear idea of where I'm headed next. A wise friend gave me the advice that I need to "breathe and trust" and let life happen. Phew! Wait, what? You want me to settle down and trust? Whoa, whoa the faith train has pulled into town and I have been issued a first-class ticket. It's so simple and I'm here to say, it works. As I calm down, I tend to think more clearly and see those small and simple blessings that are right in front of my face. . . and then there was the day I let my bestie talk me into something completely c-razy, but it proved a fierce point that I needed re-enforced: I can do scary things.
See this photo? To some it may look like a 'gorgeous Utah sunset' but to me it is pure and utter craziness because I was standing in line to get on this nutso roller coaster at Lagoon. Behold, the white roller coaster of death. The rickety, scary-as-hell, oldest, made-of-wood roller coaster. My Lu bestie came to visit this last weekend and she had passes to Lagoon for her company summer party that she shared for my birthday adventure present. I'm a lost cause at amusement parks. I have a weak stomach, issues with heights and the attention span of a 5 year-old while waiting in line. However, I also know that I don't die when I'm under the influence of Dramamine and if I calm down and close my eyes (total child) I do actually have fun. So, little by little she got me to go on crazy-ish rides. When she suggested the white roller coaster I thought, "why the hell not? I won't die. I might come close, but I won't die." So crazy that I did it and I am pretty sure I was more entertaining for her as I tried to not wet myself or cry or both. But! I DID IT! I so totally did it and I walked away feeling like a champ because I overcame a serious amount of fear. As I was walking like a drunken sailor to the concession stand for my free Diet Coke (WINNING!) I said to her, "you do realize this is going in my next blog post?" So there you go. Laugh amongst yourselves that I even told you about it.
What I love about life is that sometimes the best coping mechanism is wearing a good pair of red shoes and throwing on those sunnies to have a moment to breathe while no one is looking in your eyes to see the real story. We can't wear our sunnies all the time, but we can sure take a break and look hot whilst letting ourselves breathe and trust.
The moral of the story: Life will always have a new adventure for us to tackle, but the good news is: we CAN do scary things and we DO live to tell about it!
Until next time, my lovelies!